Long time, no blog

So, I know I haven't blogged in a really, really long time. We have had a very strange year so far, with lots going on, and sometimes not enough going on. I really haven't had much time to reflect or think about what to share with you all, and even now I feel like most of you have heard our same story over and over again.

Today we booked our move to the house we are renting in San Jose. We seriously considered buying, and even took several trips up there to look at what was available, but decided to continue renting for now. We are so excited to have a house that seems like it will be very comfortable. It isn't he most up to date, and it is a little hard to go from the urban style of our NY apartment to a house that has pink tile in the bathroom, but we are grateful to have more space for ourselves and our kids, not to mention awesome public schools. This is exactly the situation we were hoping for when we considered this area. I am looking forward to decorating a room for each of the girls, but as for the rest of the house I am kind of at a loss for now! We don't have a ton of furniture right now so the place is going to be a little strange until we can buy a few more things. Of course, I haven't even seen this place yet, so I am going to wait until I get up there to see what I can do. Anyway, I am preoccupying myself with these thoughts, but really I am dreading the day that I wake up there by myself (with the girls, but without Matt) for the first time and the loneliness of this new life hits me. We don't know yet how often Matt will be able to come home. This year really won't be that different than it was during the first three years of med school (some times were easier than others), so I know I can handle it, but I just think it will be a big shock after being at my mom's and having so many people around (including Matt) for so long. Of course, I am also looking forward to being totally in charge and not having my pesky husband putting in his two cents about setting up the house and I can do it all my way--I mean, the right way--the first time. Yay for that. Still, even after being a SAHM for almost three years now, I wonder how I will fill my time. Babies 24/7 with no relief. Yes, I am hoping to get Lizzie in preschool in a few months, and yes, I am hoping to find a good sitter, but it is still a lot of work with almost no breaks, even through the night. Obviously, I am having some trepidation about this move, but I know we have planned as well as possible and set ourselves up for success. I am sure it will all be fine in a couple of months, but it is going to be exhausting!